It's all becoming so clear to me. I couldn't see it before. I had no idea why I was being punished for my past acts. I saw my being single as a stigma. The epitome of rejection. When people hear you're single they question you, 'WHY?" As though, if you're single there must be a reason. Your worth must be less than someone of a more desirable stature.
But with my dad going back and forth into the hospital, I know that is the Divine reason of singledom.
If I was in a relationship now, my mind would be disproportionately somewhere else. When I love someone I love hard and I might love too hard. But being the solo me I can keep all my love focused on my wonderful father. I have my blinders on, although they occasionally slip. But my purpose is him right now. He's so important to me and I don't want to miss any opportunity that I can to make sure he's taken care of. He's the only parent I have, and I'm going to cherish every minute.
I do want love to find me one day though. I've just given up for now.
My new yank friend is so nice, and understanding, and naturally gorgeous. She is so funny about southern music though! But I will admit a lot of the booty shakin crap does sound the same. But It still makes my booty shake nonetheless!!! She also understands what I'm going through. We have a connection.
In my opinion (of course it's MY blog) there is no such thing as a soul mate. There is such thing as falling for the person that gets on your nerves the least! lol.
But I might be Jaded.
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Nice Post!!! Keep writing more, However, I think I do believe in soul mates tho. I think that there is someone for everyone. Just gotta focus on yourself until he or she finds you. :)
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